Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Dear Judge,

(If you or a representative is reading this, please know that we are sincere when we say we are praying for you).

Six times now you have stated that you would set our date ‘tomorrow’. And with each passing tomorrow you were too busy. Then today your calendar was clear of meetings so you thought for sure you would have time today. But today came and you took the day off work despite telling Irina today would be the day. We have been praying for your busyness and for God to soften your heart for our case. You see, one of God’s blessings is also a curse for us. He has blessed us with the ability to begin to love and attach to a little boy half way across the world that we only meet a few days. He has allowed that little boy to already become a part of our family. Our children wonder everyday why we haven’t left to get their little brother. We keep explaining that you are very busy and have a lot of official business to take care of, but it is getting harder and harder for all of us to understand. We are a family of believers, and we believe that God’s timing in all of this will be perfect. We just wonder how many hurdles we will have to overcome. A few weeks ago I was so full of despair and fear. The particular circumstances that brought me to my knees seemed unbearable. But I must say that now you are helping to build my character and strength. There are verses in Romans that read, “Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” So through all of this persevering, I have to believe that I am growing in my character (although I find myself guarding my hope).

Through my tears of disappointment, anxiety, frustration, and heartache I will continue to pray for you. Please know that we miss our son so very much and you play a vital role in reuniting us with him.

In Christ’s Love,
Heather

7 comments:

Heather and Chad said...

There are so many things I love about adoption but the waiting and broken promises are not one of them. I've often wondered if things would change and people would change their ways if they were in our shoes. Praying that tomorrow will FINALLY be the day...you are more than deserving as is your sweet baby boy!!!

Tracey and Chuck said...

Everyday I keep hoping "today will be the day" and then today is over!! My heart is aching for your family and I am so disappointed with this judge who just doesn't understand how important it is to set a date and how much this little boy needs to be reunited with his family. Praying too that tomorrow will be the day!

Masha said...

I am soooooo sorry to hear this. Thankfully you are a person of faith but so difficult to have broken promises. I hope that you get your long awaited news soon.

Sabrina and Giorgio said...

Heather, i'm sorry you're having to go through this. You are such a strong and faithful person that I know you can handle this but I hate that you have to. Please send me your phone number so we can talk.

Doug and Shelly said...

Heather, my heart breaks for you. I can only imagine your frustration. I will pray that this mountain will melt like wax as it says in Psalms.

Jody said...

Praying so hard that the judge will find mercy in her heart. It's so hard.
Tell your children that we are especially praying for them. We found when we were in the same situation that as hard as it was for Jason & I to understand, it was so much more difficult for our children to understand.
Hugs from afar...

Corinne said...

I totally understand your feelings and frustration !It was one of the hardest things we ever did was wait and wait some more ! Praying for your family !