Besides a few loose ends here and there, we are feeling surprisingly squared away. It is almost eerie though because we feel as if we are forgetting at least fifty things we are supposed to be doing or packing. I think I am more nervous than I realize though because physically I am not feeling well. Every time I eat anything I feel horrible afterward for at least an hour. While I appear to be calm and have it all together, my body knows that is not actually the case. Hopefully I won’t feel this way the entire time we are waiting to get back home from trip two. But if it is anything like the wait to bring Blake home, I think I may be in store for many upset stomachs and headaches. Thankfully I am surrounded in blessings that can at least temporarily keep me distracted.
Something that is cracking Justin and I up is the fact that both of us have mixed emotions about indulging in the ‘thing’ that we sacrificially gave up. As I blogged about here, I gave up chocolate on March 21 (a little over 8 months ago) as a way to remember to be in constant prayer about our adoption process. Justin and I agreed we would not have our ‘thing’ until we were in route to meet our referral. At times I have daydreamed about the first time I had chocolate again. Since we have been refraining for so long, it feels like we would be cheating or breaking a promise or giving in to temptation. So it will be interesting to see what my reintroduction with chocolate is going to be like. The hardest thing to resist right now are mocha flavored drinks or cocoas. I could live without an actual piece of chocolate, but chocolate flavored beverages seem to be calling my name. Ok, I need to be off to get a start on the day. I can’t give Blake, Madison, and Brady enough hugs. I am going to miss them so much!! Ohhh and Justin’s birthday is tomorrow! Such an exciting week for our family!