Sunday, January 9, 2011

One Month

I see tonight the ticker at the top is at one month since we left the Little Guy… So far I have been a little at ease because I prepared myself for the holiday stand still. And even though I have been trying to fight the feeling all day, I realize that my anxiety is increasing. Knowing that in theory things should be moving again in Vlad, makes my head spin. Will we have the two letters we need from Russia this week? Will we be able to get everything in our hands by Friday so we can get them appostilled and sent back over next week? Where are our documents we sent out on December 22nd? And the list could go on and on. I am not ready to let these overwhelming feelings get the best of me. I know that so far everything has moved smoothly for us. I know that we are incredibly lucky blessed. I just can’t help but get worked up now that I know we should be seeing some sign of progress. I will just have to tell myself to breathe – just breathe.

This past week was a big one for our family. We have made the announcement that I will not be returning to work at the end of this current contract which ends in June. It was a tough decision as I really care for our department and of course it will impact us financially. But there is an overwhelming sense of liberation, relief, and excitement with what is up and coming for us. I will now be able to be at home with our little guy. I never really dreamt we would be adding a child to our family that still has THREE years before kindergarten! We are also really excited about being more available both physically and mentally for Blake, Madison, and Brady. I will help Justin with his rental and farming business. He needs me :o) There are so many things I can say about this decision (sometimes I feel we have to defend it) but perhaps I will expand on the topic on our family blog if time allows.

Slowly, steadily, surely……..

4 comments:

Doug and Shelly said...

Heather, I'm so excited for you to be staying home starting this summer. I, too, am very aware of the loss of income when you make that decision. We really didn't appreciate my $40,000 until it wasn't there any more! You learn to adjust and then are blown away at the amount of money you used to spend! It is so worth it though, and I'm sure you'll find the same thing too. Too funny--I had the words "Breathe" on my blog today too! :)

Kate S. said...

WOW, big decision! But I know you both thought through this very much and you are doing what is best for your family....EXCITING!! Your department will be missing out on having you there, but look how much your family will gain from your decision! :)

Sabrina and Giorgio said...

Heather, I know you thought long and hard about this and it's truly a blessing to be able to spend this time with your family. You have a huge heart and know what's best for now. Feel confident about your decision and know we all support you!!

Nancy said...

Congrats on your decision! I know it's hard, I did the same thing after we brought Joshua home. But it's so worth it!

Thanks for putting the Vlad pictures together!